Poem (2/2) from old Blog

Does it really matter anymore?
If it does why?
Why would you make that descision?
Why can't you see?
Why can't you see that I am trying
That I am better
That you'll ruin me
When its gone
Why can't you see?
Why are you blinded?
What is it that makes you ignorant to not listen to me?
Why are you taking this away from me?
Does it have to be that way?
Should I move on?
Or should I give up....
Just like you did on me.
-Derrick-

Poem (1/2) from old Blog

There's something missing.
Something that was taken away or never given
something that I desire
something I can't move on without
something just beyond my grasp
something, of a great importance
yet something of little importance
something that is just there and wont go away
like a thought or feeling
a feeling for something or someone
something thats just not right
a longing for that fullfillment
a desperate need
something my soul is begging and pleading for
something I know I might never have
something, that something thats missing
its still there taunting me, waiting for me to just touch it
for me to get great enough a glimpse of it to show me itself
waiting patiently, beyond those bars of reality
beyond your imagination,
beyond life
its there
waiting

My Friends Awesome Minecraft Server

So I have played with one of my friends on the game called Minecraft, which many of you, if guys, or girls maybe. Will know. He decided he wanted to make a server, so he did, and it would be awesome if you would join and check it out, maybe tell him I sent you! Derrick


Server
mc1585.servercraft.co:2653


copy and paste !!
Have fun!

Parents

Don't you hate it when your parents act like the are hot shit, like you are their own personal slave, like you are programed to server them whatever they want? Well I do, and that's exactly what happened last night when my sisters came over. When I am over my dads, I can usually relax, and just forget about what happened yesterday. But not this time! This time I was getting up every 2 minutes to sweep the floor, set a table, pour everyone drinks, do this do that. For God's sake I don't want to do it any more than you do! Why not just do it yourself! Its for you anyways, you should do it and get some satisfaction out of doing it yourself.

How Today Was

Well, it went alright I suppose. Not very exciting, I did earn 25 dollars, but I had to pay my sister 20 of it for a mothers day present. Oh well. So other than that, I did schoolwork, drove, mowed a lawn, and am now at my dads, I was at my moms this morning. This is because my dad wants to take us down to my Grandmoms tomorrow morning for breakfast, which should be fun, hopefully we go to Denny's or Bob Evans haha, I would gain probably 20 pounds in one breakfast. Breakfast restaurants are amazing. I am rambling again, I should name this blog, the blog of a rambling student, or the blog of a student with no focus on what they are saying! Which I usually don't, but to hell with it, its who I am.

I am not to sure what the point of this post is, other than you just hearing me talk, or reading my writing etc those sorts of things. Maybe you like laughing at me passing time on blogger, oh well, in that case, you shall sure be entertained! I'm kinda liking this blogging thing, its like a way to talk to people, but not at the same time. Knowing that someone could be reading what you say, and thinking about it without you even knowing at the time, is sort of creepy yet fascinating at the same time, but then again, that could be just me. After all, I am kind of a strange person.

So I don't think I have much more to talk about, so I'm just going to leave you guys with a funny Cyanide and Happiness Picture. Have a good....Night...Derrick

This Weekend

So unfortunately, my mom decided to take away my phone, laptop, and my ability to go out. Even though I kinda know where she is coming from, I really dislike this. She doesn't understand the reasoning I have for the things I want, and I don't understand the reasoning that she has for the things she wants. Whether she wants to believe it or not, we are very different. I mean other than being a boy and girl haha. She always has to have things done right away, while I, on the other hand, just want to chill out and do it later. She wants me to get practically straight A's in school, I am happy with just C's and B's. We have so many different opinions, it would take forever in 3 days to explain all of our differences. So to spare you guys some pain, I won't go through all that. But I will just say that, we most definitely have our differences.

On the other hand! It looks like a beautiful day outside, even though I just woke up about an hour ago, and haven't been outside yet. By the way its about 10:30 AM...Eastern Time. No clue who may be reading this, or from where, but I live in the USA...of course haha. But yea, not going to lie, those thunderstorms last night were so amazing, I am just like in awe of the power of nature at some moments, how one flash of light, could power a 100 watt light bulb for 2 months! Without being turned off! Thats just like, mind blowing. It is too bad that we as a country haven't been able to harness the power of lightning. It is something that we just sit back and watch in awe.

Yea I had to include this awesome picture of lightning in here.

So, I am going to need something to do today, since this is probably the only time I will be able to get on the computer. I am most likely going to have to clean my room, clean the bathroom, vacuum the townhouse, and mow the grass. But I am mowing the grass for my Grandmom and Pop-Pop (our name for Granddad) , we also used to call my other Granddad who has now been deceased for a good time now, Dzia-Dzia, which is Polish for grandfather. But getting off subject here. I am most likely just going to finish up mowing my grandparents lawn, maybe get paid a little bit from them, (oh yea the reason I have to mow their lawn, is because they were involved in a very serious car accident, so neither of them can do yard work anymore). So I suppose I will just end this here, because I feel like if I just keep writing, this will wind up to be a rant of the things that I am doing, or the things I am not happy about, which I suppose wouldn't be bad, but I'm sure thats not all you guys want to hear about. So I will probably write another blog tonight, about my day, how it went, and things of that sort.

Have a nice day :)
-Derrick-

So, Today at School.

Yea, so my school is having a fair today, and to prepare for the fair, they dismissed us all at 12:40! I mean that awesome and all right? Yea well, it would be, if I didnt have to stay at my school until 4:45 pm. Sigh. I dislike this, it is not fun, I am extremely bored right now. Theres like no one here lol, stupid baseball pictures, thats what I am stuck here for, if I didn't already mention it. Sorry that this is going to turn into some sort of rant, but I just wanted to find myself something to do, and I cant access many sites on my computer, because the schools internet blocks them. Once again, Sigh.

The Great Gatsby Ending Summary

Well, I had recently had to read The Great Gatsby for an English book. I am not going to lie, the book itself was very boring, however the ending (Chapters 7-9) was extremely depressing, I know I talk a lot about depressing things now, but I just wanted to point this out. If you are reading it now, and don't want to learn of the ending to the book, please look away now :P.

So in the end, at least in chapter 7 Mr. Wilson finally finds out that his wife Myrtle Wilson is cheating on him, so he become "emotionally sick" and plans on moving west with her as soon as possible. He also decides to lock her in her room until they move west so that she can not escape off with her other lover, which is Tom Buchanan. However to Myrtle escapes! But in her plight of escape, she is hit by a bright yellow car, and instantly killed.
 
Then Mr. Wilson goes to Tom Buchanan with a gun and demands that he tell who killed his wife, not knowing that Tom was the one that Myrtle was cheating on him with. So Tom tells Mr. Wilson that it was Gatsby, assuming that the yellow car was his, and Mr. Wilson finds Gatsby at his house, and shoots him in the head. On following this action, he commits suicide with the very gun that killed Gatsby.

Later, when Gatsby's funeral is arranged, almost no one came to his viewing, for they had all just taken advantage of him for his parties. Only "Owl eyes" shows up, and feels sorry that everyone had just taken advantage of the poor man.

After all this, Nick decides to move back West, however, he decides to visit Jordan one last time, to proclaim how he is almost in love with her. But she tells him that she is already engaged. Angry, and hurt at the same time, Nick fumes out of the house. When preparing to move out, he visits Gatsby's house one last time, and while he is there someone calls the house, thinking that it is Gatsby, telling him that someone has tried to turn in illegal bonds. Which reveals that Gatsby was involved in illegal bond dealing, which is how he gained all of his money.

And the book ends there, it was such a depressing ending.

My Parents, Divorce, Depression, Sadness, and Me.

None of us highschool students really like school do we? Most likely not, however I for some reason seem to have a greater dislike to school than other kids, and my parents make me pay for it. Just a few minutes ago, I  finished up with a counselor, and it was not fun. They brought in my mom, and to be totally honest, I cried about my parents divorce, and my dads girlfriend, for the first time in a while. It just upset me a lot.

My counselor also pointed out that I am apparently angry on the inside, because I expressed anger towards my mom for something she said. She said that she was upset because I said "What the hell" to her one day last week, and then she went on to say that I had said that to her many times before, which is a total lie, I have never said that to her before. At least to my recollection, but what I can tell you, is that I have heard HER say "What the hell" to me many times before, not to mention swore at me, threw things around me, and screamed at me at the top of her lungs.

So I think I live a pretty normal life, I mean other than my parents and the shit that I had just talked about before. I go to highschool, play baseball, have a girlfriend, and am in a good group of people, that I am happy to call my friends. Anyways, I am not sure of what else to write about tonight, so Im just going to end it here. Thank you for reading this, if you care to share some suggestions on my parents situation, please, feel free to leave a comment, it is more than appreciated.
Until the next time,
Have a good day!

Google Adsense

So, I recently applied for Google AdSense, thinking that they would deny my application, saying that I couldn't for some reason, HOWEVER I WAS WRONG! they accepted my application, and I am hoping this will help me in the long run! So if you all who are visiting my site, could click on one advertisement if you are compelled to, it would help me out  A LOT! It could help me bring you guys better content! Including more Minecraft, Call of Duty, Halo 3, Computer programs, and MORE! So Please, help a brother out :D